littlyte

Very recently my husband suffered a heart attack. I was not there. I
found him 30 minutes later. He was dead. Not knowing what to do, I
called the ambulance. They worked on him and worked on him. He was
taken to the hopsital where he was in a coma for 8 days. Then was
moved to another hospital for "rehab", then another hospital for more
"rehab." Long story short, my husband is brain damaged. Severely. He
doesn't know who I am half the time.

Here is what I have learned: Things are not as bad as they were and I
think that, little by little, it is getting easier. ONLY because there
comes a time when you must accept what is going on and no longer
fight. Fighting, internally, with God, with life itself, makes it so
much harder. I am trying to go along with everything he says, which is
what the psychologists have told me, "don't try to talk logic to
someone who has no logic, just go along with whatever he says."

That was pretty hard to learn for the first six months. I found myself
arguing to him, getting angry, and he would look at me like I was from
another planet. Now, I TRY (emphasis on try) to just let it roll off
my back. Like, when he thinks I am his ex-wife or that he is living in
Mass, or we have children in the house, I try to just go "Uh Huh,
yeah, that's right." Because in all reality, he will forget in 5
minutes what he's said, where I will be stewing for hours. It needn't
be that way.

So, I am trying very hard to maintain and wait. I have no other
choice.
Thank you!

This trolling business is so pitiful. I've been on message boards that
were wonderful, conhesive and tight-knit, until they were ruined by
trolls. In one case, it got so bad that the entire message board was
discontinued. Everybody suffered for the loss of the friendship,
support and day to day comraderie; everybody, that is, except the
troll. They were probably pleased as could be at their work. I just
don't get the mentality of wanting to "crash" the party, so to speak.
What is it about causing a stir, posting crap, trying to cause the
demise of a stable website? These people are...what? Bitter? Angry?

I don't know, but since that stupid Monsters post, almost every post
or comment has these morons in it. It just sucks.

Anyway. Hope everybody is having a good day!

I'm not quite understanding the way this blog thingy is working. Does
anybody know why the first entry here is showing up as a "shared
letter?" I guess I'm just a little clueless.

The point of this website, but now I think I do. It took a bit of
thinking, but now when I see commenters defending the integrity of
this site, I understand what they mean. I never did before when I was
just reading the posts.

I got a little upset with a post about an elderly crippled lady and I
shouldn't have. It's just that I have a mother who is very ill and
crippled. I want her to come live with me and she says she cannot
travel. My dad is coming into complete alzheimers and I worry for
them, but I truly worry for her. I would take her into my home in a
flash.

But, back to the point I was trying to make. I have actually helped
elderly ladies in the restroom. Why? I have no idea. Did I think I
could say No? It never occurred to me! I just felt bad.

I wanted those on PFB to know that I am sorry for attacking them. I
did not mean to, honestly and I am sorry.

Anyway, life is so strange. It takes turns that we never dreamed it
would take...and it takes our dreams farther away than we could
imagine.

I just wanted to do what I read on the Suggestion site about people
having a profile. I am trying!!!! I tend to get passionate about
things, but I swear, I will try to curtail it!